Wish It Was Simple

Where were you that night,
When the screams came,
When the tears fell,
When the world ended?

Where were you,
When I was the walking dead,
When I was the empty eyes,
When I was the abused?

Oh, I know where you were,
You were hiding.
You were afraid.
You were standing idly by, watching my demise.

I know where you were,
You liar, betrayer.
Disloyal. Gone but there.
You let me down.

You want to come up now,
Now that the dust has settled.
Now that I am free and able.
Now that it's clear.

You want in.
You want out.
You want a voice.
You want to fix it.

You can't.
Why?
Where were you when I needed you?
Where were you?

I will never forgive you.,
Because you lost yourself.
I lost myself.
And I don't know how to find me again.